THE TRUTH COMES OUT!

 

 

What is going on with me? Last night, while laying in bed with my wonderful boyfriend, i was in that stage of half awake and half asleep. This is a very dangerous stage to be in becuase if you ask me a question, I will answer honestly to any question that comes my way and I will go into this conversations that go on and on about anything that is on my mind.

 

I was there in my state of sleep trying to fall asleep and I just blurt out that I have changed my mind about commitment. THE TRUTH COMES OUT! I have found myself thinking about popping the quesiton. The hell?

 

Please do not think for a minute that I am not happy to be with him but the the thought of being with someone for rest of my life is a little odd. I am not one of those people that have thoughtb monogamy is unnatural, I am just someone that get bored easily.

 

I have a history of jumping from one relationship to another and breaking heart along the way. I have found that love is alot like a bungie cord. We can run as far away from it as you want but it will always slam you right back into your place.  That is my t shirt saying of the month. I need to write a book.

 

Back to what I was saying though. I would really like to stop jumping around and actually settle down but I would like to have an out. I have been so close and I am not one that beleives in divorce just because you dont like someone.

 

Divorce is something that is a little touchy, and I know this. People get divorced for good reasons but when I hear about people divorcing just because they no longer want to be married make me mad. I have a few friends that are going through a divorce for this very reason. Why even do the whole thing anyways. I know people that are married for the sake of the kids and then when the kids go off to live their own, the parents split because they don't know what to talk about.

 

I do not want to be one of those couples that don't know how to be a couple with out kids. I just keep on thinking about it, maybe that's the reason people are having so many kids these days. 

 

"Honey, either we have a real conversation or you ride my cock."

 

Wow.....

 

I am ending on that note.