I feeling this way.

 

 

I dont know how to process this. Chris and I have been together for little more than year and everything is going well. I love him all of my heart and there is nothing that I would ever change about him but when it comes to the subject of miving in, it's like pulling teeth.

 

I don't get a fucking straight answer. I know where he is coming from, the thought of going from bachelor to step dad figure for two is huge, but I would still be here if I didnt think he couldn't do it. It's not that I need  him to move in but it would be nice to have the two most important parts of my life be under one roof and I can stop feeling like two people. I am not asking him to take care of me, I would just like to be apart of my family.

 

His lease is coming up at the end of the month and he hasn't made up his mind. I don't want to keep on nagging and nagging him but I am getting impatient and I would really like to take the next step. We talk about what to do wth boys during school, where we can take them, we brag about how great they are, we talking about everything and we get along great. We already know what things we will need to work on while living together and we have already came up with a game plan of how to fix everything but all it is for me is mixed messages. I feel the same way I was a year ago when I didnt know if I wanted to say I love you first. I don't know where I stand and I hate feeling so temporary. I dont know how this is going to affect us if he says know but I do know if we do move in, it will feel right. I can't even think about this subject with out crying, because I want this so bad. I want him but I also don't want to do something he was not ready for.

 

I feeling this way.

 

Chris,

 

I love you. Would you do me the awesome honor of moving in with me?

 

Maria.