You have hurt me.

I am not one to tell someone that they have hurt me because I believe that some issues are more my problem then theirs, but this was something that hit a nerve. It makes me believe there are just some people that live in this bubble that since it won't ever happen to them that it's ok to say something.

It started on Saturday night with this simple post: Anne is testing my patients. Put her in a bath and go to clean the kitchen. I hear slashing. I go an find that she has used her Legos to throw water across the bathroom making a huge puddle. Not happy.

This post looks all sweet and normal but apparently this status update will get CPS called in me because it says I left my 2 year old alone in the bath tub.

1. I have three kids. It's not like haven't done this before. 

2. My apartment is a shoe box. It is so small that I can hear when my boys are talking to themselves during a shower. 

3. I think CPS has better things to do. I have emailed CPS about a mother that I know has a three year old, pregnant, steals anything to get her hands on to score some pills, and all she does is yell at her kid. I was told because I don't have the proof and they really can't do anything about it except call them or check out the house. Doesn't matter now they are gone. 

Someone took it upon themselves to say something. Not to me. Not to my husband, but to my sister in law on the other side of Washington State and they live in the same area as we do. We live 20 minutes from the Idaho border, seriously? I get a text from my husband saying that he just got a call telling me not to post that stuff. NO ONE CALLS ME! GET IT NO ONE CALLS ME!

My husband tries to get the name but nothing comes out. I am more hurt than mad and my sister in law is in tears because she thought she was doing the right thing by telling my husband and not me. We pretty much know who it is and will see what happens because they were told to admit to it but I am still hurt. 

To the person that decided to not tell me.

If you were worried that I would have taken it personally and be defensive, you are right I would be. AS WOULD ANY MOTHER! That is your opinion and all I would have said is that we agree to disagree and move on. I am grown ass woman that made the  adult decision to post that and if CPS wants to come after me let them. 

You have brought up a bunch of past memories of when I was a single mom. I had to fight tooth and nail and maybe even some pounds of flesh to have what I have no. The boys Dad had his mother, who was living with my parents, call CPS to where I just moved into. She claimed that I had no beds, clothes, diapers, and I let them eat old dried food from the floor. The boys father had his friends watch where I was going, who I was with, and how long I had the boys with me, because I had a year long restraining order. 

My son got in HUGE trouble during super bowl sunday because he told someone that we don't spend enough time with him and it got out of controll to the point that someone said something about CPS coming to the house. That caused a panic attack. 

Also pas·sive-ag·gres·sive

adjective

1. of or denoting a type of behavior or personality characterized by indirect resistance to the demands of others and an avoidance of direct confrontation, as in procrastinating, pouting, or misplacing important materials.

To me this means that you have no respect to fight your own fight.You also have no respect for me as your friend. The more things you pass things on and it wasn't meant to get back to me just add another layer of judgement.  There is nothing wrong in what you were thinking and if it was not meant to get back to me then it should have just stayed in your head. You have put my sister in law in a spot that was hard you haven't messaged or anything saying it was you or even saying that you are not going to apologize. 

If you are going to have an issue with something that I said then tell me, leave my family out of it. If you want to hurt me and piss me off keep doing what you are doing and the next time I see you, you will be suspect and weather we can be friends is going to be on you. 

I don't know how I am going to feel the next time I see you. You have hurt me. You made me shake. You made me cry. You have made me questioned our friendship. CPS is something that you just can have a small conversation. It's a huge deal. You are talking about taking kids away from mothers. There are mothers that need CPS to save then from themselves for the kids safety. That is what CPS is for. 

As to weather or not you read this, I don't care. This has made me feel so much better.