Burnt out.

I am burnt out. I am tired of my job. I hate my job. I am tired of coming home to a messy house. I am tired of cooking. I am tired of being the only bread winner. I am tired of everything being on me. 

I know that this is what I signed up for but I need a break. I getting so overwhelmed with then clutter that I don't even want to do anything because there is so much but I am so tired of it being every where.

I am tired of having to go a job that is going to write me up for everything that I can find their hands on. I am not the best but I do my job. There seems to be a new something everyday that we have to do and new rule that has been around this whole time but no one knows about it. I am tired of feeling like no one has my back. Every time I vent it seems that someone gets offended. I just want to be left alone to do my job. New people ask what it is like working their and tell them the truth that it is a hard job. If there is a problem it's going to be your fault, there is always going to be that one that is going to call you every name in the book, and you need a thick skin to work this job. I have never felt so micro managed in my life. Not even my parents were like this. Going in there is a nightmare. I don't feel like anyone cares if I am there or not.

I come home and I have to get up again because I am the only one trying to bring in money. I hate not being able to stay home. I am afraid that I am going to miss everything because I am always too stressed out and to emotionally drained to be any good to anyone. I need to get out and do something for a while that is different but what do I do? 

My husband's job has "laid off" because there are no hours. I don'y even know if he would qualify for unemployment because he is still on the pay roll just not working. I have been trying to be positive about everything but I need some help. I need him to start working. I need to have some weight off my shoulders.