I have always been a very curious person I have never been afraid to ask a question, except for when it comes to my boyfriend.
I have been wanting to ask him a number of questions but all the questions I want to ask are about me and how much he loves me. I think the reason why I am in need to know is because he is not one of those guys that will feed me the corny line or promise the moon and I am ok with that but I am not used to it.
In my past I have had been given all of these and was told how much they loved me. It was almost like being put on a pedestal. I don't want that exactly but I am not going to lie, it would be nice to hear. It doesn't have to be a whole fan fare about how much he loves me but I would really like to know exactly how he feels about me.
There have been moments that I would try to ask but just as I grow the balls to ask a ball of nerves grows in my stomach. It's the fear that he doesn't feel as strong as I do about us that takes over. Words get lost and then there is this awkward silence, then I smile and I don't think he notices.
Is it ok to ask? Would it make me look like I need to be needy for a pedestal? Does it make me shallow?
Have you done such for him? Sometimes, it's hard for a guy to speak his mind about emotions -- especially if the guy in question is afraid of smothering someone he feels strongly for (and thereby driving them away).
ReplyDeleteI'm not claiming any special insight into your guy's mind (I hardly know him). Just stating what I know goes on in my own head.
--Lance