Random thoughts-

 

There is nothing really much to say today. I wish that I had something, but no nothing. I have been thinking about movie ideas that might work for something that I have in mind but really I have nothing much to say.

 

My mind has been in a never ending blur of bleh with a haze of funk. Nothing is making me sad but nothing is making happy and I don't think would call this contentment. I am watching my finger do all the typing of these empty words that are spewing out of me like a broken gumball machine.

 

On an emotional aspect of things I am ok. Don't like when mother nature pops her ugly green head. Wow. I just thought about something that is kind of on the amusing sign. Why is that I always imagine mother nature with a green face when my 28 days expiration date comes along. Is it because she is jealous of all the fun and great sex I have been having, or is it because she knows that once again I am not going to procreating this month? Just a thought and a good question.

 

Back to the emotional side of things today. I have been thinking about a lot of things; they have been eating away at me all the time lately. I am finding that some people that have known me since high school are coming out of the wood work saying that they have had crushes on me back then. No one ever spoke up because I was with someone and that they thought there was no point... here is what I think. If you like someone do something about it. Don't hold shit in thinking that its better. I am not a an expert in this department of telling people how I feel but, I do know if there is someone that I am interested in, I am going to say something or do something about it. whets the worse that can happen? they can say no. I know that I don't take no very well but I at least put it out there.

 

If this means that you find yourself making out with a guy that in a car after a fun night of singing than you have done something about it. I am proud of you, but there is a saying that I know very very well.

 

If it happens once its a kiss. Second is a one night stand. Third, is a pattern and by the fourth time you still haven't done anything about it you and the other party is in fucking denial. I know many of you are thinking that I needed to take this information during a certain time that was not so long ago, its fixed.