The level of ok.

Sitting along in my house, knowing that Chris is not going to be home when I go to bed. I am watching Tori Spelling go through this whole cheating thing and just remembering that things could always be worse. 

Chris and I have been doing well so far. We have our moments. Chris is noticing that need more of him, and not just him playing a video game in the same room. I am learning that me being in charge all the time is not healthy. I need to let him be him and tell me stupid science jokes that I don't understand because it makes him happy. 

I know that there are couples out there that don't have what we have they look so unhappy. Why is it that people who get married seem to think they can stop trying?

I would believe that if you love someone and you decide to be with that one person for the rest of your life, wouldn't you want to keep trying? 

I feel like a wife that I have gone into this comfortable mode. I know what I have to do to make it work and what to make him happy, but why should he just be happy? Why or how do you make your partner excited to be married to you?

How do you make a weekend for yourself and your husband when you know it is impossible? He has to work, there are these kids, there are bills, and these are noble reason why to make it just ok but I want more than ok, he deserves more than ok. 

I have heard that marriage always come first even before kids because if they see how you can lean on each other and help each other then they will but I know that kids, money, bills, dinners, laundry, and even dishes have come before us. 

Some couples don't even have that level of ok. They have nothing but this false hope of sticking it out for the kids or because they don't want to be alone. All they do is hurt eachother by just staying together.  I don't want to that to happen.