A friend that i have not spoken to in a very long time, call me asking me for help in the love department. She was under the impression that I found it easily. It was an awkward moment when I had to tell her that I went through a lot of heart break trying to find it.
I was under the same spell that she was or is; when I was single I thought that love was to be this over production and lines that only Willie Shakespeare would have to think up but older I got and more complicated life got I realized that this is a bold fat ass lie.
Thanks Hollywood for letting me think that love came with Gene Kelly songs and Gone with the Wind kisses.
She kept on saying that she wished that she had what I had. I couldn't understand why. My life is what I want not what was going to fit her. She thinks that being 32 and never married or not having kids is a failure as a woman. It was one of those moments that I wish I was good at. I am not good at consoling.
Love is not meant to be found. Love is meant to come when it is ready. You can not force it, you can not even request it, all you can do is except it when it is ready for you. You can even miss it. You have to love yourself and realize that love is not explainable. It is different to every other person. God knows that one person is there for you and sometimes when one person goes away, God makes another. Sometimes he makes heart ache to make you feel what it is to be hurt and how to treat the next. Sometimes God will be hurting when something so good can be taken by something so evil. Even God can feel hurt too but when he finds that one person for you, you will cry, and that will be your wedding day. 
My love is waking up to a snoring ginger, a morning kisses from a two year old, and two boys that never clean their room. I have a simple life of being at home but that is what I want.
Again, I am not good at consoling but what I do know is when right comes along you catch it. Don't hold on tight or it will break.
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